- When You Say Nothing At All

Hey All, I haven't had internet access the past few days and I was too tired to schlep over to Second Cup and blog.

Tonight I went to my group at the Wellness Center of the Jewish General Hospital. It's called the "Newly Diagnosed Breast Cancer Group" and there are 14 women in various stages of this disease. My oncology nurse Kim was the guest speaker, and we had a power point presentation with lots of information on different types of breast cancers, tumor characteristics, and chemotherapy treatments, as well as an introduction to lots of really cool words I can't yet pronounce having to do with cancer.

The sheer amount of literature and research on the whole topic of cancer is just overwhelming, and I honestly don't even feel the need to delve into it all that much. I'm dealing with everything really well, but sometimes I start reading up on some aspect of cancer that I don't know about yet and I start getting a kind of panicky feeling, so I just put down whatever I'm reading or I switch to another screen if I'm on the internet, and then I'm fine.

I figure I'm on a need-to-know basis for now. I'm not at all in mourning over the loss of  "The Girls" which I'm really grateful for. Getting on with my life is my main focus for now.

The fatigue from the anesthetic is starting to subside. I find that if I eat really well, I feel energized and I can go out and do some things without getting exhausted, but if I skip a meal, it really catches up with me. I found out tonight at the group that most women gain weight during chemo.....BUMMER!!! I figured I would feel nauseated and eat less, and that I would slim down - yay! But now, they've developed some very effective anti-nausea meds so.....oh well, more important to be healthy.

Besides, it's not for sure that I'll even have to go on chemo - I'm still waiting for the final pathology report that will be the deciding factor as to whether I need it or not. (If you want the full explanation of all this, just go to the sidebar on the right, click on "September" and then on "Health Update" and you can read it).

Here's a beautiful song for you to listen to, sung by Alison Krauss, who is one of my favorite artists. Talk to y'all again soon!

When You Say Nothing At All    

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

CHORUS:
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define

What's being said between your heart and mine

CHORUS:
The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all

sung by Alison Krauss