Tuesday, August 31, 2010

- Mine Again!!

Hello, all you wonderful blogger-followers, how are you all doing?? My blogs get fewer & farther between, but fear not . . . I am still a force to be reckoned with & I am still alive & kicking.

It's been so nice not having to go to the hospital every day, now that my radiation is over & done with. I feel as though my body is MINE AGAIN!!! Nobody poking or prodding it, or sticking needles in it, or chemo-ing it or radiating it, or examining it, or removing parts of it. Pretty cool, huh?

Of course, I did go for an ultrasound today - it lasted 5 minutes & cost $110!! That was the fastest $110 I ever spent, I think. The doctor who did it is one of the best in the city, so I guess it was worth it. I hope. If I'd waited for a freebie ultrasound with Medicare, it would've been a 4 - 6 month wait....so forget it!!

Anyways, my gynecologist had sent me for the ultrasound. He said he wanted to make sure there was no cancer in the ovary, as is sometimes the case when breast cancer has also been present. The ultrasound doctor saw a round thingy on the screen & so did I. "Is that a tumor?" I gasped. "No, I think it's an egg." An egg??? At my age??? Sheesh!!!

He couldn't be sure cuz it's so small. I'm thinking that when all this treatment is over, I'm going to get a hysterectomy. It'll just be one less place any more dastardly cancer cells can build their evil little nest. 

Plus it will ensure I don't get pregnant when I'm, like, 70, right? Yep.

Nothing says "bad mood" like finding out you're pregnant when you're 70, I always say.

Well, this past weekend was a whirlwind of activity! To start it off, my Friday Morning Prayer gals threw me a gala lunch for my birthday (which was actually a month ago). We got together, prayed for awhile, and then sat down to eat lots of yummy stuff.

Here's Helen, one of my prayer partner gals, & me, wearing my birthday crown! I turned 51 on July 25.  :)

She gave me CHOCOLATES!!! Mmmmm!!!

Did you know that chocolates make a great breakfast entree? Yes, they do.

Well, on to other adventures. On Saturday, George & I were off to Cornwall, Ontario. Some of the churches there organized a Family Gospel Concert, and I was on from 2-3 pm, doing an hour of singing & comedy. Then we were treated to dinner by Pastor Brad & his cutie-pie wife, Sharon! Cool!

It's quite scary but Sharon & I have somewhat the same wacky sense of humour and an identical flair for mischief. It's probably a good thing that we live in different cities...if we hung out together, we'd probably end up getting arrested or something. Which could be an adventure in itself, come to think of it. Oh, Sha-a-a-a-a-ronnnnn.....!!!

Sunday, we were off to Franklin Centre, Quebec (near Ormstown, Quebec) to spend some time at Franklin Centre Church of the Nazarene. It's a rural church around an hour's drive outside of Montreal & it's always fun going there because people in the country actually have time to hang out with each other! 

I shared the message on Sunday morning; then George & I went back to hang out & eat lunch with our buddies Anna & Paul. I love them to bits! And Anna is a great cook!

It was so much fun sharing the message Sunday morning. It makes me feel like a preacher-girl! I spoke about having purpose in our lives & staying true to that purpose. 

I always like to clarify that statement, though...I don't believe purpose in & of itself is enough of a goal for us...that purpose must be attached to a deeper meaning.

What do I mean by that? Well, purpose is great, but if you believe that this life is just temporal; just a "dress rehearsal" for what is yet to come, then citing some earthly achievement as your main goal in life is just too short-sighted, IMHO (In My Humble Opinion).

For example, if I say that my destiny, my purpose in life is to sing, let's break that down. What is accomplished when I sing for others? Well, it makes them feel happy, or sad, or melancholy, or encouraged...it challenges them, or relaxes them, or makes them think, or motivates them to change. 

All of these results are good, but at the end of the day, those emotions or actions are mostly temporal at best. They probably have very little bearing on eternity.

One of the reasons I am so peaceful as I walk through this cancer experience is that I am not afraid of dying, nor am I afraid of future prognoses (that's not a spelling error: 'prognoses' is the plural form of 'prognosis').

As comedic actor Woody Allen said, "I'm not afraid to die; I just don't want to be there when it happens!"

Anyways, I believe our chief purpose in life is to have a relationship with God. The Westminister Catechism says, "Man's chief end is to glorify God, and to enjoy him forever."

I totally believe that. In everything I do, whether it's funny, or serious, or difficult, or easy, I try to make it my goal to glorify God. In doing so, I am enjoying Him, enjoying the people He created in His image, and enjoying my days here on earth. 

Someone pointed this out recently from Psalm 23: "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil..."

It's "the shadow of death". Not "death", but "the shadow of death". A shadow is dark, but it's still just a shadow. It may look threatening, but it vanishes if we turn away from it...it's then behind us, out of sight. 

That's how I see my current situation. I'm not afraid of shadows - never have been, never will. They're just shadows.

Of course, I don't have my head in the sand, so to speak. I realize that once cancer strikes, it has the potential to be fatal....I fully realize that. But I'm talking about all the worrying that can go on when actually, the cancer may be fully curable. In that case, all that worrying is for nothing, and its effects on my body could be even worse than the disease itself!

A shadow in your life means that the Light is just behind you. Turn around, and there's the Light! For me, my relationship with Jesus takes away my fears & provides me with Light. He even says in the New Testament that He's the Light of the world! 

Psalm 36:9  "For with You is the fountain of life. In Thy light, we see light." (The Jewish Bible / "Old Testament")

Well, y'all, have a wonderful day, and may you walk in His Light. And remember, don't be afraid of the shadows like this little one is...poor cutie-pie! Somebody pick her up, pleassse!!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

- Goodbye, Radiation Resort!!!

Oh, Happy Dayyyy!!! As much as I've thoroughly enjoyed my time at the Radiation Resort, all good things must come to an end and this is no different. Today marked the 25th Suntanning Session on that lovely Suntanning Bed at the marvellous Radiation Resort, dah-ling!!! Can you believe it???

I tell you, the time has just flown by! Five and a half weeks, gone! Just like that! And here I am with the incomparable Radiation Resort staff, clutching my utterly charming fake flower they give to all guests on their last day. How sweet is that???

(Actually, the flower is presented by Hope & Cope, the Jewish General Hospital's group that supports cancer patients. They're awesome, dah-ling!)

Here I am on the Suntanning Bed, sneaking in a quick read before my last session begins. Why are these Resort staff people SO impatient?? I mean, sure, there are dozens of other guests booked for this very same bed today, but sheesh!! A girl has to have a bit of leisure in her life, doesn't she??? Sev & Joseph: take a pill, dah-lings!!

Relax, you two!!! Honestly!!! I guess no matter where you decide to take your vacation, there are always going to be people who don't understand us. Oh, well!!!

So, let's celebrate!! Well, maybe in a few days. I'm still a bit tired, not only from all that suntanning, but also from schlepping back & forth to the Resort every day. As I explained earlier, it's not equipped for overnight guests, which is a bit unusual for a Resort, if you ask me....but oddly enough, no-one did. Ask me, I mean.

Anyways, on another note, for the first time in 32 years of singing, I have EIGHT bookings this month!! I mean, it's crazy!! This Sunday morning, I'll be singing & doing the sermon (yup, I'm a preacher-girl!!) at Three Steeples United Methodist Church in Champlain, New York. If you live in the area, you must stop by to say hi!! It would be such fun to meet some of you face to face!

There's a mini-concert for some seniors the following Thursday, and then next Sunday, I'll be at another church in the Montreal area. There's the outdoor gospel festival the Saturday following that in Cornwall, Ontario. And then the following Sunday morning, I'm singing & doing the sermon at Franklin Centre Church of the Nazarene and a concert Sunday evening at that same church. What funnnnn!!!

Seriously, if we've never met (and even if we have!), it would be great to see you at any of these events! Be sure to come up & say hi, okay?  :)

To see my singing & speaking schedule, click here: 

Well, that just about all my news....I've got another three & a half months of Herceptin treatments at the Jewish General, but they're only every 3 weeks, so that's not too bad.

Thanks to each one of you who have added comments & encouraging notes here on my bloggy-blog, and for your marvellous support throughout all of this cancer journey! It's not over yet, but we're hopefully coming down the home stretch.

By the way, the results from the most recent CT scan came back last week, and the spot on my lung & my spine are unchanged. This either means (a) they are both shadows, or (b) they are cancerous but have been kept in check thus far by the months of chemo I went through. 

So it's inconclusive at this point, and we'll just have to wait until early 2011 when all treatments are finished. But honestly, I'm not all that concerned, nor am I afraid. Que sera, sera - what will be, will be!

Can you believe it's almost been a year since I was diagnosed? It was August 19, 2009 at 8:30 am when that cancer diagnosis came down, and it's been quite a trip!! But I'm still here, and I'm still joyful!!!

I have to say that without the wonderful security of knowing my Heavenly Father loves me so much & is looking out for me, I don't know what of state I would have been in throughout all of this. He gives peace in the midst of the storm, and He gives joy in place of sorrow. What a privilege it is to know Him and to trust Him. I am truly grateful for His mercy to me!!

Well, here's a promotional video of the Jewish General Hospital. What fun! I was asked to participate in the filming, so you'll see me first with the Rasta wiggie, and then with the green wiggie! And my fave puppet, Oswald the Knuffle Bird, also made a guest appearance! Yay! :)

Until next time, fellow-travellers . . . may God bless you,

Love, Wendy

(If you watch the counter, you'll see me & Oswald at 0.44 & 1:55!)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

- The Radiation Resort

Well, dah-lings, life continues to be simply grand, here at the Radiation Resort. I feel like sending all of you a postcard saying "Wish You Were Here!!!" but there are simply not enough hours in the day for me to do that. So you'll just have to keep reading my bloggy-blog here!

Here I am, dah-lings! I'm enjoying the "suntanning bed", and as you can all see, I haven't forgotten my suntan lotion and my sunglasses. Why, who would ever visit a Radiation Resort without them?!?!?

As you can see, the staff is SO attentive! Aren't you jealous? I'm not sure how much I should be tipping them, so if you've got any idea, please email me to let me know, won't you?

In other news, Timmy the Cat is still being his usual adorable self. But just in case you think he's...well, absolutely perfect, I thought I would show you pictures of one of his little snits he gets into every once in awhile.

It comes on rather suddenly, I'm afraid. One minute, he can be calm as can be, and then something rubs him the wrong way (usually, it's "yours truly" who rubs him the wrong way), and then he's in a snit. 

Here's how this one happened: he was perched on the ladder, being his happy little self....

And then I probably tried to rub his little tummy, which was hanging down between where his front paws and his back paws were perched:

Oh, oh - I recognize that expression!

It's all downhill from here!!

And when he begins turning his head sideways, he's REALLY annoyed!!! Ooh, watch out!!! Timmy on the warpath!!!

What a little monster!!! But then, there are all his other moments when he's just his little adorable self...

Guess I'll keep him!! Heheheh....

Well, I'm off to bed. Another busy day tomorrow at the Resort, so I must get my beauty sleep....

By the way, if you haven't signed up here to be one of my Blog followers, please do! I hear it can be a bit complicated, and unfortunately, I have no idea how it's done, so I can't help you out . . . but "give it a go", as they say in England!!

Night all,

Love, Wendy  xoxo